WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SO HARD???
I thought I have moved on. I thought it was okay for us to
be friends again, but the truth is, it is not. I still have feelings for him and he told me he still has feelings for
me too but then again he has no time for me or having a relationship for that
matter.
Sometimes I think maybe it is my fault? Why can’t I just
loosen up and not take things seriously? Why can’t I just easily adapt to the
so-called “Canadian dating scenario?” Why can’t I just have a good time with the guy I like and don’t expect
too much? But then again, knowing
myself I know if I reach that certain emotional level with somebody, I would be
crushed knowing that we cannot be more than friends.
I don’t know what to do right now. I am hurt. I am sad. I am bewildered. I would want to take back all the things that I have said and
just meet him and have fun. But at the
back of my mind I am thinking, can I handle the pain, the hurt, the thought of
not seeing him once again?
Why does it have to be so hard? Tell me.
