SOME GOOD THINGS NEVER LAST
Now it is final…everything was over last night…a thing that haven’t even started to bloom yet. It was a choice between career and personal life and obviously the personal life (pertaining somehow to me maybe) was not his choice. It was a time-and-distance problem, a problem that most dating couples, marriage couples, family members and friends encounter in some point of their lives. Funny thing is that eventhough it hurts, I understood. Maybe if I was in his shoes I would have done the same thing, choosing career I mean. But the only difference is that, I can keep the career and fight for the personal life as well. I will find time for that, no matter what and how it costs because if that person is that important to me then nothing and no one can stop me.
I must admit I cried, a thing that I haven’t done for so long now. Everything came back to me last night. All the heartbreaks that I have been through. All the frustrations that I had in my life. It seems to me that eversince I got here in Canada, I have never been absolutely happy. I always keep a happy facade when in fact I am sad and lonely inside. Last night it came to me that Nova Scotia is not the place for me. I will see to it that once I finish my contract next year I am out of here. I will not stop looking for that happiness because I know it will come my way somehow, somewhere.
To you, thanks for the time, for the chance, for the smile that you have given me for awhile. I will always treasure that night that we went out . You just don’t know how happy I was because you never ceased to make me laugh. Good luck to your career and personal life as well. My prayers to you.
I need time now…to heal…to reflect…to regain that strength back…to replenish my capability in liking someone again…some good things never last.
December 6th, 2006 at 5:23 am
I admire your courage to pour your heart out. God bless na lang po ang masasabi ko. Don’t worry, He will see you through. SMILE!