Kaye’s Inner Mind

It is exactly a week now after i met this wonderful guy.  That night was, I can say, one of the coolest night in my life.  I have gotten the courage to meet this guy in person not knowing what will happen after.  I know most of you will ask if I wasn’t scared at all because I am meeting a total stranger.  Well of course I was scared at first, but I know nothing bad will happen to me.  And one thing, whatever the outcome is at least I won’t live my life asking myself "what if".

I had a wonderful night actually.  Even though it didn’t take that long, I spent the whole night laughing my heart out.  We just went out for coffee and then just drove around town and talked.  He is a very funny guy.  I mean you know there will never be any dull moment with him.  He knows his priorities in life, a family-oriented person and responsible.  He was a teacher before so I know he loves kids too like me.  And oh i forgot, he is cute too, hehehe!!!

I came home with a smile in my face, still smiling eventhough I was already asleep, still smiling the next day when I woke up.  It was a feeling that I haven’t felt for so long.  But then, (well i don’t want to elaborate more on that), I made a mistake a couple of days ago.  Let us just say I said something in one of my emails that really hurt him.  He said he felt insulted.  I did apologize, thrice thru emails coz I don’t know his contact number.  It was never my intention to make him feel that way.  Maybe if I would have told him "that" in person rather than thru email, he would have taken it differently.  Oh well, what can I do?!   

If only I can turn back time, I wouldn’t have written what I have written.  I would have taken my time.  I would have told myself that this guy is not a Filipino, he is Canadian; and of course, we have cultural differences that I know would need a lot of adjsutment and understanding, not only on my part but on his part too.  But I guess it is too late for that now.

I really want to see him again, to tell him face to face that I didn’t mean to hurt him at all, but the fact that he hasn’t talked to me eversince that happened only means that it is over.  It is over.

If only i can turn back time…

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