DID I MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE?
It has been 2 years and 3 months since I came here in
Canada. It was my ultimate dream to
leave my home country and go abroad so as to search for greener pastures. As they say, not all Filipinos have the
chance going here or in the U.S. so I guess I am one of the lucky ones and I
know a lot of people back home want to exchange places with me. But after everything that has happened to me
here, I think I might want to exchange places with them instead.
Don’t get me wrong though, I will be always thankful to the
Lord because I know if not for His unending grace I wouldn’t be here. But what I am trying to say, up to this
moment I don’t know His real reason for sending me here. I don’t want to elaborate on the details but
I have had problems here that I haven’t had encountered back home. I must admit
being able to surpass all these problems have made me a stronger person than I
was but sometimes when all of these seem to be never ending, it makes me regret
coming here. It makes me think that
even though I don’t earn as much back home, still I was more happier being
there than here.
I am sorry for feeling that way, but at this point in my
life I can say I am in my lowest. I
don’t know how and when I can stand up and say I am willing to face my life
with hardships again. As of the moment,
I feel drained, I feel hurt, I feel a big empty space in my life, no direction,
no reason, no hope. I feel that even
though I have done so much still everything is not enough to make me happy.
So did I make the right choice in coming here? The answer to that question…I still don’t
know.
kbk/112306
November 23rd, 2006 at 5:51 pm
EXACTLY. Exactly what I feel too, ate kaye. :[[[
November 25th, 2006 at 12:40 pm
Be strong frend, we here for you u, kaya nga siguro nag karoon ng frendster para makilala mo kami. kaya mo yan, me too hindi parin alam kung ano gusto sa sarili. my liefe comes worst too, even here in my family. Siguro talagang ganun ang buhay ngayon maraming ka akibat na problem.
100% na sure Kaya mo yan, nakaya nga ng iba dba.
Ingat frend hayaan mo malapit na akong mapunta dyan, ikw una kong pupuntahan kung ok lang sayo.
Cge ingat frend
November 28th, 2006 at 8:57 pm
hello my beautiful friend…di ka nag-iisa..I’ve been through my lowest too..hmmm…mahirap talaga na nasa ibang bansa ka..when I left pinas..i was full of hope that everything will be better when I get here..but nope..actually u know what..kahit san ka dalhin ng tadhana as long as u know deep inside who u are..i guess u will survive….i always tell myself that everything happens for a reason…I cry myself to sleep most nights..full of regrets…na sana di nlng ako umalis..but you know what..what I do is just try to enjoy what I have..and then move on..u know kaye..ipon ka and then send money there and invest sa pinas..then when u decide to go back..upo ka nlng dun sa beach resort mo..think about all the people that you can help once u’ve established ur self here…konti tiis nlng..
u will be fine..move here sa vancouver para di ka na sad,,okei!love u..
marjorie
December 6th, 2006 at 5:21 am
hey kaye! you are not forgotten. Isipin mo na lng that the Lord knows every detail of what is happening to you right now. So don’t fret. Take care and God bless!