Kaye’s Inner Mind

I have told myself a long time ago that when I love again, I
would make sure that I wouldn’t get hurt in the end, but after all I have been
through in life I know this is beyond possibility.  When you love
somebody, eventually, one way or the other, you will get hurt.  Because
when you love, you give everything you’ve got.  You love them without
boundaries.  You love them eventhough you know that they can’t love you
back the same way you do, just the thought of loving them is more than enough
for you.  You love them and accept them for who they are.  You
sometimes ignore their weaknesses because for you they are
"perfect."  You build these dreams in your head, thinking how
wonderful it would be if this love would last a lifetime. 

Yeah, I fell in love again, for the nth time (oh well actually 5th time on my
counting but not necessarily having them as my bf’s), hehehehe!!!! And it is so
stupid of me to think that somehow maybe this guy felt the same way too, that
this guy is the one I am waiting for for so long, that maybe this guy is who I
am meant to spend the rest of my life with.  But oh well, i guess it is
not meant to be after all and there is a reason why this happened or at least
that is what I want to think just to ease the pain a bit.  I am just a friend
and that is the way it should be.

So here I am trying to forget….again!!!!

I just hope and pray, deep in my heart, that there is somebody out there
waiting for me, sharing the same views in life, having the same laughter,
crying the same sorrow, breathing the same air, and listening to the same
music.

I will be waiting…even if it takes forever…

P.S.
To RH, EB, PE, RA and VL, thanks for giving me the chance of loving you in my
own little way.

kbk
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