Kaye’s Inner Mind

I must admit, these past couple of days was one of my lowest
days. I had these feelings that I wish
I didn’t have. I even wished that I
could literally cut off my hypothalamus so that I cannot feel anything
anymore. It came to a point that I want
to kick a friend out of my life. But
when I woke up this morning, everything changed. I woke up with a smile in my face knowing what I really want in
my life.

It was not a long time ago when some of my friends and my
dear cousin Leth told me that being happy is not just being with a
partner. You have to love yourself
first before even loving somebody else. If a partner comes along, then it is your bonus. But to sum it all up, happiness comes from
within yourself and not from anybody else.

So maybe that is the reason why I woke up with a smile on my
face this morning. I have realized that
friendship is more important to me than love. Don’t get me wrong though, it would be great to have a partner in my
life right now because it sucks being lonely. What I am trying to say is that friendship tends to last longer than
love because most of the time love doesn’t end the way you want it to be. So for now, having friends by my side is
more than enough for me.

So to you, my REAL FRIENDS (you know who you are), thank you
so much for putting up with me. I hope
our friendship will last forever, and when the time comes that I find my
partner or my partner finds me, you will still be there with me to share the
moments.

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