Kaye’s Inner Mind

This past few weeks have been a rollercoaster ride for me.  There are times when I think I already have found the happiness i have been looking for but there are times that i ask myself, did i really or i am just imagining things again? It is all about right timing.  Patience i told myself, patience!!!

I also realized a lot of things from what is happening around me.  What is love without trust?  Is it all just about sex? Is it all just about lust?  Is it all just about companionship?  Is it all just about security?  Is it all just about being with someone you really love but waking up each morning wondering if you can trust this person or not?

I asked myself, can i do that? Can i be with someone whom i cannot trust 100%? i dont think so…no matter how i love him, no matter how i would want to be with him and spend the rest of my life with him, still it boils into one thing, i would want to trust this person as he would to me.  i believe i deserve that trust because if i love somebody, i give my whole self, my whole being, my whole existence.  i am not a jealous person, i don’t tell my partner don’t do this, don’t do that, i believe in the existence of three worlds, his world, my world and our world.  As long as i know that i can trust him, wherever he is, whatever he does, that is all what matters.

So can i love somebody whom i cannot trust??? i don’t think so…i don’t think so.

kbk/08/03/06

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