Happiness Where Are You?
I have always thought that you can buy happiness just around the corner. It has been eight years and until now I haven’t found that happiness. My life was routinary after graduation, worked my ass out because of overtimes in the office, went out with my friends from time to time…that made me happy, yes, but still this is not the happiness I have been looking for.
Then I was given the chance to go to Canada. I thought maybe sailing a thousand miles and living in a place I have never been before will give me the happiness. Met friends here, went out if I can, able to support my family even more than before, but still this is not the happiness I have been looking for.
One person is giving me happiness. Happiness that I have never felt for so long (after my college days). Gave me importance. Gave me strength to go on. Gave me smiles that I thought I can never have again. Gave me the reason why I should hope that someday I might find the happiness I have been looking for. But what we have is all but fantasy, all but temporary, all not within my grasp, all beyond my control, all is just a dream, all is wishful thinking for it to stay forever……I know this will never happen.
I have been struggling, almost dragging my feet to stand up once again. To try to convince myself that "Hey, you will be happy. Just wait. Just give it time. It will come." But who am I fooling??? No one knows. Only God knows when.
So who can blame me if I wanna stay with this happiness that I have for now? Who can accuse me of things that I shouldn’t do or should do? Can they give me the happiness I have been looking for??? As for now, I am holding on…keeping this happiness as long as I can….as long as it still makes me smile…makes me breathe….makes me hope that someday I will find the happiness I have been looking for.
January 28th, 2006 at 7:35 am
Hey,
Ikaw naman:) cheer up!..happiness is a STATE OF MIND. You could be happy in many different ways,in many different levels…ppl tend to be look up on others to judge themselves where they are(either better or worse)…if u think that they are better than you, u’re wrong! they just know how to hide their misery very good…of course, human nature tends to wanna want more once they are tired of what they aspire and got.
In da financial side–I manage to see some scene from Dr. Phil’s show, he said that money can’t buy happiness, but studies show that it can, in a manner that it relates to how stress u are in managing your finances, in other words, if u have money and don’t owe anyone, u could be happy…